Thoughts!

I have had a lot of thoughts going through my head lately.

Weird, deep,thoughtful, profound, scary, mournful, funny, silly and insane thoughts just to name a few.

I also have been thinking a lot what to do now that my kids are getting older I find my self lonely a lot in this big house with no kids during the day.

I don't want to get a job because I want to be available for my kids if they need me.

I have been thinking about volunteering  I just need to find the right place to do so.

I also have been thinking of  becoming a yoga instructor.

I really need something.

I also keep thinking about running a half marathon it is one of my goals this year I just need to find the right one.

It took me a while but I love running it's a part of who I am now. I think a lot about what a hard journey it was to love running I am glad I stuck with it because I found out I am really good at it.

William has been in my thoughts a lot lately I miss him so much it's hard to breath sometimes.

I also think of how much I miss my oldest daughter Kadie and her family, I really wish they lived closer.

My Brother Carl has been in my thoughts a lot too sometimes it feels like he is dead not in prison for a crime he did not commit.

I also think what a chicken I am not to go see him I just cant bring myself to see him in such an awful place.

My thoughts turn often to if I am a good mom, I know I am a OK my but am I a good mom.

So many thought I tell you and when I run with out music I get more.

So there you have it a gimps into my thoughts.