I have had a lot of thoughts going through my head lately.
Weird, deep,thoughtful, profound, scary, mournful, funny, silly and insane thoughts just to name a few.
I also have been thinking a lot what to do now that my kids are getting older I find my self lonely a lot in this big house with no kids during the day.
I don't want to get a job because I want to be available for my kids if they need me.
I have been thinking about volunteering I just need to find the right place to do so.
I also have been thinking of becoming a yoga instructor.
I really need something.
I also keep thinking about running a half marathon it is one of my goals this year I just need to find the right one.
It took me a while but I love running it's a part of who I am now. I think a lot about what a hard journey it was to love running I am glad I stuck with it because I found out I am really good at it.
William has been in my thoughts a lot lately I miss him so much it's hard to breath sometimes.
I also think of how much I miss my oldest daughter Kadie and her family, I really wish they lived closer.
My Brother Carl has been in my thoughts a lot too sometimes it feels like he is dead not in prison for a crime he did not commit.
I also think what a chicken I am not to go see him I just cant bring myself to see him in such an awful place.
My thoughts turn often to if I am a good mom, I know I am a OK my but am I a good mom.
So many thought I tell you and when I run with out music I get more.
So there you have it a gimps into my thoughts.